The midwife who did the scan yesterday was surprised I hadn't been seen by Prof Smith - he not only runs the POPS study we're participating in (Pregnancy Outcome Prediction Study), he's also the GD guy I think ... something along those lines, she wasn't that clear. She said I should call and have a chat or see someone, specially if I am not sure I want the Lucozade challenge in a couple of months.
Well, I emailed the team for advice and a nice doctor called me back pretty quick, and we had a chat. He thought I should come in and see someone and be assessed, and that hopefully everything will progress as normal and I'll have my normal birth for the baby.
He sounded good. Didn't say anything that made me worry, so lets see what happens. I'm to go on on Tuesday the 27th. Ooof, it's gonna be back to back doctors and midwives and whatnot now isn't it .... Still, with a bit of help, I should be able to beat the IR and avoid GD, at least try to!
I called the midwife Annabel and left a message, she's on holiday and will get her to do the referral letter later.
Am feeling on top of it, but a bit worried about getting diabetes, and about losing the battle with the IR - after all, it IS a possibility (I'll bet I win in the long run though!!)
Mum is now no longer pleased about my home-birthing dreams, and although her fears are based on just fear for the sake of fear, nothing she was worried about applied to me or my plans or my situation, and it's far too soon to know if I can actually aim for a home-birth realistically, her fears reminded me how powerful other people's fears and negativity can be, how much it can weaken me. I don't need to be weakened from the outside!! Strange for Mum to be on the outside anyway, I thought she liked being involved. Well, its not for me to force anyone, right?
Wish I really was a samurai, like Iain says I am. More training and discipline by now would have helped! Other people's sadnesses and fears get me down.
I have my writing schedule to focus on at any rate - I'm seeing Michael about the same time as I see the antenatal people ... I really think I'll have the draft papers and presentations in order by then, and a section completed as a sample from my first Robinson Chapter. Am looking forward to focusing on that rather than more negative things I can't change about the world anyway.
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