So we sat and waited, I did my wee sample, had my repeat FBC/Anaemia blood test, and it went smoothly. Got weighed - it's 82.2 kg which is great! I am managing very well, and it is unlikely to go up much now at this rate - Baby should gain weight, not me so much now. I'll be eating carefully of course, so that is why.
Baby has really been moving! I said he is probably moving down now. Kerry the midwife saw me and said she's happy to see my bump coming along. I told her about the moving and she said first babies, if they find their way head down tend to stay put. Good news!
The kicks are all up above as usual, he definitely knows his way down!!
Anyway, saw the diabetes consultant, she was happy with my numbers - I pushed her for more information about what I can do in the following few weeks. She had commented that she can't say at 34 weeks that I won't be on insulin in a couple of weeks - baby grows most in 34-37 weeks (they bloody say that every time! What a bunch of a**holes - if they are determined to change the bar every time ... why not just say there are no milestones for you, right until the baby comes you are just as much at risk of having to have the insulin. It's just irritating how they tell me to do one thing for 2 weeks and then say oh, you did it, yeah whatever, it means nothing. If they are going to play games, they should play them better or design a better game. It's just bad manners IMO. Hmmpphh)
Anyway. She did say that if, by 36 and 37 weeks I STILL have numbers like I do now - then she can say I will not be needing insulin.
WOOHOO
So I just need to beat the IR for 3 more weeks ... and then keep the baby safe by doing the same job for the subsequent weeks till he comes.
3 Weeks. 3 Weeks. That is only 3 weekends (danger, danger). I can do my best. It could work.
I am absolutely sure that my problem is not diabetes it is just my IR - if there was an actual problem other than my usual, then I know I would not have been able to do so well so easily. Yes, I KNOW it has not actually been easy to eat so strictly, exercise even with the big belly and the lack of encouragement from the world at large ... it HAS sucked having to do it on my own - Iain does not do yoga, no one else will do it with me either, and no one has been free to take me swimming. I suppose getting a cab is an option, as is walking to the pool - but if I go by myself I would never swim for long, not enough, and walking is a long, long walk, I would not swim much after the walk. It's tricky. I don't want to do something I will not be able to do properly, and then feel bad.
Anyway, my IR - it is very hard to control, but very simple to control. I know how. Doing it is like slowly cutting off a limb ... or blocking off part of my bloodflow or air supply - I feel part dead ... SO much discipline, so much self denial, such a lot to do, it is just SO UNFAIR. It takes over my day, my week, my life. It takes up all my time. I resent having to do it - but it can be done, and I know how to do it. So I have to, don't I? For me and for the baby. I will probably hate my life in many ways over the next 3 weeks, but it is still the lesser of two evils as I would hate myself even more if I didn't do it, knowing full well that I am perfectly capable of doing it.
Sigh.
So, the plan then:
Exercise - when the problem is at its worst: when I wake up, before and after meals, and at bedtime. That's a hell of a lot of activity - very small chunks of activity I think. For example some housework or cooking, sustained activity at some speed for at least 10 minutes at a stretch. My yoga routine with the squats, the downward dogs, the exercises on all fours and the warrior. Walks down the hill to get something, to the shops, to the station etc. Walk to Iain's work perhaps - a bit extreme, but would help a LOT. Weather is bad though which is not helping. Tidying the house will count - and it needs to be done over the next 3 weeks.
Possibly - wake up, test sugars and have my iron supplement. Do some yoga while I wait for it to be absorbed. Then eat with Iain, have medicine, and walk part way with him.
Rest, wait to test sugars.
Test, eat a snack, rest, do chores (exercise)
Watch TV/Internet and rest, have lunch and medicine, wait, exercise properly, wait, test sugars, get ready for hospital appointment/Iain coming home/going out - whatever, or do more house stuff/cook/Internet/TV.
When Iain gets home we should really be doing something in the house over the next 3 weeks, or going out. Not necessarily good exercise, but presumably I will have compensated accordingly in the day. Eat carefully, take medicine, do relaxation or something with Iain, sleep.
Food to avoid - All sugar and high GI carbs, lactose.
Food rules - Eat regular predictable meals, don't get too hungry. Stick to less carbs at each meal - keep the count at 20-30. This means more meals a day as the meals will be tiny. Don't have anything that I know makes me struggle to stop eating - it's only a few weeks. Drinks with sweetener or fruit/herbal teas WITH the meals, just water in between meals. Increase fluids. Lactofree milkshakes seem to work very well with meals or as snacks.
i.e - breakfast needs to be protein with more protein, eggs with spinach or with fish, mushrooms, cheese or tomatoes seems to work very well. Again, it's only a few weeks and it seems to do the trick. Suck it up and just eat them. Cook them perfectly if need be. Have with a Lactofree milkshake. This seems to compensate for the fact that it's another $%£@&* Egg meal!
The 10:30 or 11:00 snack is important, and seems to be a meal I want to skip. This causes problems, potentially ... that is what I have noticed so far, so I think I should be stricter on this. Make life simple and just have oatcakes or an Oatibix plus cheese/peanut butter/cold meat.
So lunch becomes a bit later than 1 pm, and can really be anything .... chickpeas, beans, meat, fish, something from the freezer - with veg would be good as it is likely I haven't had much all that day (may have had some with breakfast) although lunch is also a very good time to have a portion of fruit. Perhaps the solution is to stick to just spinach, broccolli, cauliflower, cabbage, corguette, mushroom and greens for the next 3 weeks, no other veg, and just apples, pears, nectarines, strawberries and oranges nothing else for the next 3 weeks. That still gives me all the colours, minerals, textures and variety - with minimal carb damage. Other carbs - stick to brown rice or quinoa, with the odd slice of bread and oatcakes. They all seem to work. Khichudi is a good option. Keep rice and dhaal on the go perhaps, make some curry perhaps. Eat with mango pickle maybe? Seems to work.
Pretty much the same at dinner time. If lunch is at about 2:30, I should be fine to just have dinner as the next meal, with Iain, early, at 6 or so, which allows me to get some activity in before I check my dinner sugars, and then I will know what kind of snack I can have before bedtime - could be nuts and dhaal, or milk, or even fruit and cheese if I am lucky!
WOOHOO .. how sad is my life!!
And that's all she wrote!
No comments:
Post a Comment