My sugars have been good since I started recording them (since Thursday night) - they are within the range Whitcroft's nurse would like them to be, and she is stricter than the NHS.
Waiting for Tuesday is depressing, being here without Iain is depressing, I thought for a bit that Rafi was visiting me tomorrow, but that is now not happening, he's going to Cherry Hinton instead. I miss him, of course, he's my brother - we used to be inseparable for a large portion of my life, and while I don't want that any more ... we're fully grown now, and while I am very proud of him, and everything he's working towards ... but I miss being part of his week, his month ..... his year even lol. I also think he thought I was stressed about him changing my plans ... pregnant ladies just sound a bit intense I guess. Didn't mean to stress him out!!! We have talked about meeting in London soon ... can't wait for that. I think I just need to see my family, share the love, you know? Am so happy with my baby when I am not stressed out missing people or wanting something I can't have ....
Tiffany was also ill - really ill last night, and I feel so bad - for her, for me, I was like that a year ago.
Makes it all to clear how far I have come, and that even all that is not enough ... I have GD, my baby has to deal with it even more than I do, and my future is now ... well, no different I suppose, but the relevant facts have increased.
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